The golden light of summer finally broke through the clouds of the Pacific Northwest and I was ready for it. June had been pretty wet and soggy and I welcomed warm weather, long days and time out at the barn with my clients and horses. I was excited for the season to finally start.
Then, it came to a screeching halt.
Someone once told me that if you go full out doing what you love most, you will find struggle, pain and hardships. In a five minute window, my plans and hopes for the summer were dashed.
Many of you are familiar with my horse, Mercy. She is my go-to-gal for our workshops. Mercy loves meeting new people and has been an amazing partner and team member for so many women. She has touched hearts and lives in a special way over the past few years.
A few weeks ago, Mercy had a series of seizures. The worse part is that there is nothing anyone can really do about it. I cried for a week straight. It's true that she's getting older, but I was thinking I'd have to deal with arthritis or bad teeth, not seizures. Right now, all we can do is watch and wait. My prayer is that it's just a one off fluke, but nothing is guaranteed. For her safety and the safety of others, she's sitting out for now.
They say you don't know what you have till it's gone. I didn't realize just how big a of a piece of my heart this little girl has. We first met at a rescue I was volunteering at. As soon as I saw her, I knew she was my horse. Only someone forgot to tell her because, at the beginning, she wanted nothing to do with me.
It's been almost five years since then. Mercy has taught me so much, but has always been 100% herself. I'll admit, there were days that I just wanted her to be more cooperative or more understanding, but she made me earn every inch I gained with her. She always made her feelings and opinions about something clear and I doggedly kept insisting we give different things a try. At one point, I think she gave up getting rid of me and just accepted that I was determined to be her person no matter what.
I don't know what happens next. Right now, we're just waiting. Waiting to see if we get to continue our journey together or if this is the beginning of goodbye. Whatever happens, she will always have that special place in my heart. She's not just a pet or a team member. Mercy is my dear friend and we'll face things together, come what may.